When I wrote this post, I had my flu and it loved me so it still in my body for about 4 days T__T I hate flu, and cough, I just can't do my works and even update my blog.
I want to share a little ramblings. If you want to read, thankyou so much, if not, it's okay, no one loves sad story :)
So as you know, I am a photographer, I might not a real pro one, but someday I will. I promise. I choose to live like this. Yes, graduated from design faculty, but I don't think design can suits me well. Through my personality, ideas, creativity, temperament, ego, I know, this path is my destiny. But still I receive and accept any design projects, like invitations, menu book, company profile, etc.
It started in late 2012. I had much misery with one client. This case made me reject all the website projects ahead and pass it to my friends. From that day, I conviced my self to focus on one job, one hobby, one dream, and one goal. Photography.
Many lecturers, families, friends love my drawings. I do not lie, and arrogant either, really, since kid I love to draw, pencil and paper are always in my bag. It made a 'brand' inside me, everybody knows that Gita is a illustrator. Oh how I love to draw. But it went away, since high school, I feel so busy and sometimes I hate the fact that I can't draw even once a day again. But it became a habit, a bad one. I came into a university, the hobby went more far away from me. I had my friends, my projects, my exams, my boyfriend, everything that makes me far far far away from drawing.
I don't know but I tell you the truth that I don't have many friends. I just have under 10. They are my best, they know me well. I am quite easy to make friends, but I dunno why, since I were in elementary till high school. I know, slowly, that they d o n t l i k e m e . . . .
I don't get bullied, but after several weeks getting know each others, I know, in their eyes, they don't wanna make friend with me anymore. But I still quite, I don't ask them why. I only draw and draw. When I watched Michelle Phan's video: "Draw My Life", I cried, yeahhh, I understand that feelings, Mich! Really we were the same! That feel when you're in the crowd of fun, but still you're feeling lonely. . . . .
Back to present.
I go through my 22 years old with uneasy things. But praise the Lord that I can make it with my family, especially my mom.
I am building my absconding reality from zero, totally zero. With my own money, my only hardworks, ideas, tears, deseases. I feel very sad when someone steal my ideas, like, hey why can't you just pop your head up so you can have your own idea?
I met a lot of people that underestimate me. And they even ask, why so expensive to hire a photographer? I tell you the truth that being a photographer isn't easy at all. It's not like a teenager who hold Nikon or Canon, and they called themselves photographer. NO!
Ever wondering why almost all of photographers, chef, tour guides, police, are male? Why?
Because it wasn't easy jobs to do. You will need hardwork, strong immune, strong mind to become one. I did not say that others jobs are easy, nothing easy in life, at least I know that being a photographer also need this: passions.
Every photoshot I made, I get sick, my immune is bad I know, very bad. But still I can't leave photography, I am very into it. I love it. My job, my hobby, my creativity, my dreams.
I hope I can be a pro one, and make my parents proud.
Thankyou for reading (if there is any reader) ^^;
Till next post, no ramblings.